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My friend's a bitch. [Jun. 2nd, 2011|04:09 pm]
 

Let me introduce you to my friend, named money. She's a bitch. You can call her whatever you want, a slut, a whore, any adjectives you can think of, she doesn't really give a shit. Now don't get me wrong, I still love her, but she can sometimes be, like I mentioned, a bitch, when I need her.

Money can't buy you happiness; Money can provide you happiness.
Depending on what kind of happiness, but money can definitely provide you with happiness. The first phrase; the ones on top devote all their time into earning money at the very expense of their family, thus feeling empty inside and the one at the bottom say it cause they are trying to console themselves into believing that even without money, as long as their whole family stand united as one, they can still live happily. The one in the middle, well, pick your stand.

So what exactly do we define as happiness then?
Psychologist Martin Seligman provides the acronym PERMA - Pleasure, Engagement, Relationship, Meaning and Accomplishment. That's just the summarized form of happiness. There are many forms of happiness, from the simplest thing like spending quality time with your family and friends to splurging. Personally, feeling happy equals feeling satisfied. And humans are never satisfied with what they have.

Even spending quality time with your family nowadays requires money. I'm not saying that time equals money, even though it can be applied that way too, but you should know what I mean. Unless you're just gonna sit down and have a nice chat. which even so, can't be the only way you spend quality time with them. There are ought to be vacations, outing, and with that comes spending. Seeing something you want, or even you need, and then not being able to purchase that, where's the sense of happiness, then sense of satisfaction in that? Lets make matters worse now, someone else is able to afford and and bought it instead. Doesn't that lead to jealousy, the very though of 'why can my family be richer', which is definitely not something that's happy at all.

Average family, satisfied with the life they are currently having. Standards debts to pay like car and house, able to afford to put 3 meals on the table for your family a day. Deep down, are you really satisfied? Teenagers, most of us work so that we can afford the things we want. well except the rich ones who are already able to afford. Adults, most of them buy 4Ds on a regular basis, and for what, a 23/10000 chance of getting rich. Actually, unless you get the first 3 prizes, the reward isn't really great, so I shall limit it to 3/10000 chance. That's a mere 0.03% chance of winning, and might not even be the first 3 prizes. I'm not even including other forms of gambling. Aren't they doing these acts, wishing that they can earn more money so that they are able to make their family happier, making themselves happier?

I'm not trying to say that I value money more than my family, I do agree to the fact that family is more important. In fact, family is priceless. However, in this screwed up world we live in, does that still apply to others? We've witness cases of family betraying one another for money, and if that can happen, lets not even being talking about betraying friends, even the closest ones. Its human nature to desire more, to achieve more, cause why stop when you can push for more. Human are weak against temptation, we're greedy. For the ones at the very bottom, stuck with debts, not able to enjoy a proper meal, worse comes to worst, not having a roof over your head. When despair and desperation conjure, and they are pushed to their limits. When that time arrives, can they still say family doesn't come with a price tag?

You may argue that money only provides short term happiness. Family and friends, the moments and memories we share is something that you''' be happy with till the day you take your least breath. Well with money included, I'm sure that these memories, these moments would be much better. Its all about balancing the time between spending time with your family and friends, the little pleasures. and earning the amount of money that will satisfy your sensual pleasures, your family's wants.


Call me materialistic, but I'm just being realistic. Situations change, people change long with it.
 
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Someone help us cause we're doing out best [Mar. 20th, 2011|05:21 pm]


Decisions. The decisions we make are hinges to our future. Simple decisions of daily life to life decisions.

It changes how you think in the future. It helps you in a way that you can at least avoid the mistakes made in the past if you were to come across it again. When one base his decisions on principle, it can shape who you want to be in the future, the kind of person you decide to be, assured that you will not go against your way of life. But when you find out that some of the decisions that you made in the past isn't really possible, when life doesn't always give you what you want, and plans don't always go accordingly.
What do you do then? Do you change these decisions made that shape who you are today? Or do you persist on, clinging onto these decisions believing that with perseverance, things will eventually turn out the way you wanted it to be. Sure, a simple answer of taking the other alternative solves everything, but there are going to be times when the other route is the wrong one, a time when you might not even be able to differentiate the wrong and the right.

Once in a awhile, we will all think back about the decisions we made, be it the right or wrong ones, or whether is right or wrong. I question myself, why did I do this instead of that. Which leads up to what will happen if I took the other route, where will I be right now if that happened instead of this. Its similar to those games on the magazine, taking different routes will take you to a different destination. If only some decisions is easy as playing a simple game. 

As much as I want to make a particular decision, I can't. It's just a matter of doing the right thing at the right time. Yet I don't want to wait. I've made the other decision once, now I've regretted, and I want to take the other path. If I waited for things to be as per normal again, will it be too late by then, to make that particular decision I should have make before. I guess only time will tell. 

A simple decision of either going right or left maybe the most difficult decision you ever made.  


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Is this the feeling I need to walk with [Feb. 13th, 2011|10:38 pm]



Saint Valentines Day, the most romantic day on every calendar. There are many stories behind this day, one that caught my utmost
attention however though, is this one. 

One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in 
Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men — his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

The purpose of this day is for love ones to come together to celebrate, be it you're in a relationship or with your family members. Though almost everyone would prefer to spend it with their love partner. Some might be planning to confess to the one that he or she loves. The rest, just treat this day like any normal day. Gifts are part of the equation too for this day to be complete, the most common one of course, red roses. This token of affection means so much more when given on this very day. The old poem that goes "Roses are red, violets are blue, I look awesome, do do you" Alright I came up with the second part, I know. Somehow, even though the things they do on this day are similar to the other days, it just carries a different vibe. You wont remember the steak sirloin with red wine you had yesterday, the beach walking and the sunset gazing the day before, yet you will remember the simplest detail of this particular date, even that brief second when your eyes connect deeply with each other, like how you and your partner met for the first time.

I on the other hand, have never celebrate Valentines day, not even with my family member. Its not that I don't love my family, they're the ones I love the most. Its just that like everyone else, even for a couple that's has been married for a gazillion years, we all want to celebrate with your love partner. Call me old school, but I want to celebrate this day for the very first time with this girl, a girl that I love, and hopefully the one that I'm gonna marry in the future. That's why I don't pop the question to be in a relationship easily, because when I grow old, I want to tell me kids "I celebrate my first ever Valentines day with your mother". This thought might appear naive to many, those who had have this thought before and didn't work out the way they wanted. It might be a long shot, but I'm willing to give it a shot anyways. Love doesn't come easy, cause if it does, then everyone will be falling in and out of love easily, then well, it wouldn't really be called love then.

Then again, I heard this from somewhere before. Do you know why the divorce rates are increasing compare to the older generations? Because people from the older generations get married first before they start dating. People in our generations however, date for years before they get married. By then, many will experience their feelings fading off.
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People say I'm the laugh of the party [Feb. 2nd, 2011|02:16 am]
 




Doesn't it sadden you, too see family break apart due to money matter? Family fighting over their share of inheritance, each wanting more, not contented with what they have. Gambling away the money yet not learning their mistakes. As thick as blood can be, nothing is thicker than money. Just like the shepherd who repeatedly lied for help, there comes a time when nobody will buy your story anymore. That's the time when family ties will slowly start to get severed. Money may not be everything, but it can be the thing that turns everything into nothing. 


Singaporeans these days should really start acting decently. Random bashing up of people, father and daughter incest, all kinds of weird stuff happening. A father raping his 3 years old daughter, that guy should be burnt to death alive. I don't understand these pedophile's mindset. Where's the excitement, the pleasure, in raping someone, let alone their own biological daughter, who is just 3 years of age? I mean, if you really want to rape someone, how about just find a hooker or a pornstar, I'm sure she will play along with the whole rape scene, since its kind of their job. 

The world we are living in now, is screwed up. 
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There are things you just cant keep [Jan. 20th, 2011|10:22 pm]



It has been a week and so since I last updated my blog. Every second feels like its moving in the speed of light. As cliche as it is, time really flies. Sometimes, isn't it frightening to see how fast time flies? How a day can just pass in a split second. To think that every second pushes you a step closer to death. I'm quite curious about dying, yet afraid of growing old. Curious if what people say is true, that before you die, your whole life flashes before you, curious of how it feels like when you know that breath you take is your last one, curious of what happens afterlife. Afraid that one day, I will have to depend on someone to do things, afraid of losing what I own. The year before showed me that how fast life can be, and don't to do things without leaving any stones unturned, to do it without any regrets. We'll all have regrets somehow on our very last second, but before that, why not do the things I never did before, things I always wanted to do, things I dream to do. My dreams might only happen when I close my eyes, but then again, who doesn't have a dream to begin with before having that dream come true. 

Almost a month since I moved in to my new house. The truth is everyday when I get home from school, or anywhere, the thought "This is my new house" still lingers around.  After living in a house of 10 years, its really gonna take awhile to put that thought at the back of my mind. Seems like letting go something that has been around you for awhile is never easy. Then again, don't get attach to things, since nothing will ever last. Unless scientist develop a everlasting potion, hopefully after a zombie apocalypse in which hopefully I can survive through that. 




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Where we stop nobody knows [Jan. 8th, 2011|01:35 am]


Sometimes, you have to feel how unfair life is
To actually feel how fair life is


2011 has been awesome up till now
Maybe a little mishap here and there
But hey, as cliche as it can get, that's just life isn't it!

Well, everyone have their own resolutions, including me
Though I don't think I'm accomplishing any of them
Even the simplest one of not saying vulgarities is rather, difficult
Not to mention trying to find an American or British girlfriend
I'm not desperate for a girlfriend, if I were, I would already have at least 1
I'm not bragging neither, serious shit~

Lets see whats new for 2011 then
I'm getting the things I've wanted for a long time, an Iphone 4 and Xbox 360
Before you jump to the conclusion on how rich I'm, I'm actually working to pay for those
Oh, right now, there's like a wire problem with my Xbox, I hate it when shit like this happens
Continuing, Imma dye my hair real soon again either blond or red, Rihanna red~
I'm really into playing pool now, crazy over it
And that's all for this awesome week!
Well then, lets end this post with an awesome pictures and a song ~






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There's a world out there that we should see [Dec. 31st, 2010|03:19 am]

Every year end, everyone wish for a better year ahead
Yet, this wish doesn't come true for everyone

The year was suppose to be the year he waited for
With O levels done, he's enjoying life they way he wants it
He's finally going to a polytechnic, doing the things he wants
On the first day, things didn't go as it was suppose to be
"What the fuck am I doing here right now"
This tag line alone, followed him throughout the year
It applied to many things that happened in the year
He didn't manage to get the course he wanted
He had to move to a new house to pay his father's debt
Almost at least a few times a week, he finds himself saying that line
If only back then, he didn't say that line
Maybe things would have been different

Every year, there will definitely ups and downs, cause, well that just how life goes
O levels result didn't manage to secure the course I wanted in poly
Poly wasn't that great like I expected it to be, the first few days were dreadful
I didn't manage to work much, for some reason work doesn't really want me to .. work
I didn't manage to have a successful haircut at all
I had to move to a new environment due to my father's crazy debt
I have to put braces now and remove 4 tooth in order to do that, plus I have to take out my wisdom tooth
My nightmare, if you remember, doesn't relate to your normal nightmare
My nightmare, is actually losing my teeth
I have to start to plan about my future, which I'm lost in what I want right now
There are times when I just feel like giving up, I dont feel like doing anything at all
If I were to go on, your day might just end before my list end
Yet, its this tough times, when you look at life at a different perspective, a more mature way
How much a year can change you, really amazes you doesn't it

This year, though were full of downs, I will be lying if I say nothing good happened this year
My family are more bonded now after surviving a somewhat crisis
I get to know lot more of wonderful people, a bigger social circle
I performed a lot more, most memorable will be the one at resorts world
I'm still with my good friends of secondary school, something that doesn't happen for all
All those crazy nights we spend awake, the Xbox, soccer, cards, everything we've done together
There were definitely really great moments, moments that kept me from collapsing into despair
Sounds very dramatic, but I guess that just shows how this year was for me
And even though lots of screw up things happened, laughter wasn't that much either
I'm guess I'm glad that I manage to survive another year, especially this year


We wont know what the future holds
Therefore its important to live in the moment
















For these are the moments worth living for in life
 
 


Guess I will just have to say something positive this time round :]




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All he had was a dream [Dec. 21st, 2010|01:56 am]



When the young, naive kid first sets his sight upon the television screen
He told himself "Someday, I want to be just like that"
Remember when you're young, you aspire to be everything
You aspire to be a lawyer, a teacher, a policeman, a chef, a engineer, a fire fighter
He aspires to be an actor, to be a musician, an athlete, to be famous worldwide
Even so, he wasn't confident enough to pursue this dream
He knew that he wasn't good enough to accomplish this dream
As he grew older, somewhere along the line, he lost grip on this dream he once had
His parents started telling him to be realistic, that in the world he lives in, that is impossible
Soon, he knew that the dream he once had, was just another dream
So he decided to find an alternative, something more realistic
He decided to be a lawyer, a teacher, but his grades wasn't good enough
He decided to be a business man, but his grades wasn't good enough again
So he was left with what his grades are capable of giving him, still it was a realistic one
Yet deep down, he knew that that isn't the life he wanted, that he once dreamed of
He set his sight upon the television screen again, but something was different this time round
The excitement, the anticipation he had before wasn't present
To make himself feel better, every night as he lie on his bed, he closes his eyes, and started to imagine
That's the only way that little dream he have, can somehow happen
The life he dream to have, the life he wants to have, the life he couldn't have
Slowly, he doesn't know what he wants to do about his life, his future anymore

The boy's desperate to find a way out of this life he's having right now
Having been in the same old place for years, he's almost at his limits, somehow still hanging on
He always dreamed of going on a backpack journey to the other countries alone
Making foreign friends in foreign cities, doing things he wont get a chance to do here
Try on different experiences, be it a good or bad one
He wants to be a citizen of the world
Maybe then, he might finally have a shot on realizing the dreams he once had
Maybe then, he will start believing again
Maybe then, will life really begin for him





Nobody ever wish to be just themselves
He wants to be the person that he imagine when he close his eyes

When that very moment happens, then will he assure himself
He just wants to be who he is right now







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Guess you wont do the same [Dec. 16th, 2010|12:18 pm]



First she kicks ass like a mother fucking gangster
Now, she's an awesome crazy vampire like monster
Hell, this girl deserves a freaking Oscar, can't believe she's only 13
And I cant believe I'm saying this, but I might be falling for someone younger than me
At least, a few years younger
At least, there are still some joy in my life



Oh, and my first ever baby here, finally broke up with Zac Efron
Count yourself lucky, a few more years and I would have really went to kill you
Now, my dream is slowly coming true, a few more years
Be patient ~~



..


Just when I thought that my holidays are gonna be awesome
I suddenly remember something, I still have projects
Even when I have 6 freaking MST papers, I still have a few projects
Looks like 2010 is just gonna continue to be a bitch to me
Oh, and I just discovered today, that my leg injury hasn't really recover too
Heck, 2010 might be such a bitch to me, my leg might just freaking break somehow
I cant even get the cloths I want, I cant even find any cloths I really want
Maybe, I might just turn gay overnight due to some screwed up dream
To add on to all these bullshit, I saw this sign board about the luck of zodiac
"Chicken, you have the worst luck for 2011"
If thats true, you guys should probably prepare for my funeral



This is the third thing that makes me happy and laugh
Hey, they say 3 is a charm, and my lucky number is 3 actually
Lets hope things will really change for the better

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Deafened by your silence [Dec. 13th, 2010|02:55 am]

Well feels like every weekend I'm obliged to post something for my readers
Even though there aren't many, and I'm posting cause I feel like it too
So time for my trademark line, how's life?
For me, I guess December is most probably by far the best month of 2010
I shall save my emotional and inspiring post of 2010 till the first day of 2011
So be ready for a post like never before
Continuing, I'm having my term break right now, which couldn't come at at any better time
I'm really desperate for a break, I'm still enjoying poly, schooling with my poly mates
Just that its December, I'm use to having a break at this period for the past 10 years
I really want to end this year on a high note, having things at how they're suppose to be

So I just watched Inception, again, and again cracking my brain to understand some parts
Maybe because my mind likes to think about it in a complicated manner
Anyway, I've trying to achieve lucid dreaming these few days, which is totally impossible
I mean, how can you tell yourself that you're dreaming in your dream
Everything in your dream feels like reality, no matter how screwed up or awesome it is
The moment you know you're dreaming, wont you just wake up
Cause you know you're dreaming, which means you're not asleep, because you're still using your brain
If I continue on, its gonna be a thousand word post about dream again
So I shall not probe into this matter anymore

I think today's probably the only time I went town on a Sunday
And again, I see some crazy people trying to "psycho" you into becoming a christian
I'm not disrespecting Christianity
Everyone have their own belief in their religion
You can choose not to believe in them, but never disrespect it
So what's the point in trying to recruit people into it, as if you're promoting their own God
Saying things like Jesus will save you, and the worst, you will die if you dont follow it
If that's really true, then isn't him a little selfish and abusing authority
People go to church, temple, mosque, because they have their own belief
They go there out of free will, with sincerity, instead of fearing they will die if they do not go

If you wanna talk about things as if you can do it so perfectly
Have something to back it up
If not, you should seriously just shut the crap up




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